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one of those things I found the answer to a few years before I was provided with the question
So, from there my crazy insomnia brain headed for that sodding book.
For me the thing about that sodding book, especially the first time (and you never forget your first time) is that at its best it was completely emotionally convincing. (This even went to a level so horrible I should really remember to tell Nakki about it sometime.) Anyway. The icescape. It's a sort of disassociation, a literal switching-off, that's initially presented as a solution to a problem and then gradually becomes a problem itself.
So...my question is...good solution, or best solution? I'm kinda serious. What the hell else was he meant to do? Where else could he have gone? Wasn't switching off an entirely good, rational move?
One of the many, many reasons I am looking forward to moving is tangentially related to this; non-urban environments are extremely bad for me. There's the simple poverty of culture and access to the world, and what Jacobs calls the urban quality of 'the Strange' (some days, reading The Death And Life Of Great American Cities makes me homesick for places she's writing about that I've never been to, and angry about it too). There's more specific catches too. In a way, queerness is one of them. The way there's a tie written there between queerness, rurality and disassociation has always chimed for me strongly NOT THAT I HAVE SPENT TOO MUCH OF MY LIFE THINKING ABOUT THAT SODDING BOOK OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.
For me the thing about that sodding book, especially the first time (and you never forget your first time) is that at its best it was completely emotionally convincing. (This even went to a level so horrible I should really remember to tell Nakki about it sometime.) Anyway. The icescape. It's a sort of disassociation, a literal switching-off, that's initially presented as a solution to a problem and then gradually becomes a problem itself.
So...my question is...good solution, or best solution? I'm kinda serious. What the hell else was he meant to do? Where else could he have gone? Wasn't switching off an entirely good, rational move?
One of the many, many reasons I am looking forward to moving is tangentially related to this; non-urban environments are extremely bad for me. There's the simple poverty of culture and access to the world, and what Jacobs calls the urban quality of 'the Strange' (some days, reading The Death And Life Of Great American Cities makes me homesick for places she's writing about that I've never been to, and angry about it too). There's more specific catches too. In a way, queerness is one of them. The way there's a tie written there between queerness, rurality and disassociation has always chimed for me strongly NOT THAT I HAVE SPENT TOO MUCH OF MY LIFE THINKING ABOUT THAT SODDING BOOK OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.