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i would like my life back
We promised to be Good People after christmas so have been all over craigslist today and oh my god now I remember why we got frustrated and gave up in the first place.
We have; two dogs, ridicushittonnes of cash on hand.
We want; to live somewhere that doesn't induce homicidal rage on a daily basis.
Why is this not simple?
-everything is unbelievably expensive
-sifting through spam & scams to find actual prospects is hard
-half of the people who advertise lets do not know how to use the internet and many of those who do are obvious or probable scammers
-you browse only dog-friendly places and then find the fineprint that says 'small dogs only' and wonder how no one knows that big dogs > small dogs in virtually every matter of temperament and trainability. Or you stare about the fineprint regarding income levels and realise they are going to reject you.
-I've no knowledge of how to judge one area from another.
-EVEN IF something looks sorta viable maybe you are feeling through cotton wool at a vast distance and you have to ask 'is this worth bothering Ting or whoever about? Is it? What if their website is lying about dogs being okay like everyone else's is?'
-we are both so burned out on flakes who never call back at this point that aaagh.
Part of me wonders about going back up there to apartment-hunt in person for a few days again but doing that last time was absolutely the biggest, most depressing & stressful mistake I made this year and it is not like the prospects are going to improve that much up close. IDK there must be something horribly wrong with our information-finding methods but I don't know what to do about that.
No wonder I am churning out so damn much fic lately aaagh.
We are kinda staring at the drawing board at this point. There is still Plan B. Not only that but Plan B are contributing about 90% of the spam problem so they are probably going to be receptive to haggling. We are also considering waiting, working on other big life problems around here (like me getting a driver's license finally) and trying again in April/May (ie. when I wouldn't be able to walk straight into a job) but this time looking further out of the city. We are reconsidering Pittsburgh but oh god what is the point of still being lonely all the time and it's not like it would be any easier, just cheaper. I NEED TO GET OUT FFS.
I just made lunch, and now I am going to go run with my dog, and generally try to feel less helpless but not in ways that involve obsessively working on gigantic AUs for two different fandoms. oh wat life wat.
We have; two dogs, ridicushittonnes of cash on hand.
We want; to live somewhere that doesn't induce homicidal rage on a daily basis.
Why is this not simple?
-everything is unbelievably expensive
-sifting through spam & scams to find actual prospects is hard
-half of the people who advertise lets do not know how to use the internet and many of those who do are obvious or probable scammers
-you browse only dog-friendly places and then find the fineprint that says 'small dogs only' and wonder how no one knows that big dogs > small dogs in virtually every matter of temperament and trainability. Or you stare about the fineprint regarding income levels and realise they are going to reject you.
-I've no knowledge of how to judge one area from another.
-EVEN IF something looks sorta viable maybe you are feeling through cotton wool at a vast distance and you have to ask 'is this worth bothering Ting or whoever about? Is it? What if their website is lying about dogs being okay like everyone else's is?'
-we are both so burned out on flakes who never call back at this point that aaagh.
Part of me wonders about going back up there to apartment-hunt in person for a few days again but doing that last time was absolutely the biggest, most depressing & stressful mistake I made this year and it is not like the prospects are going to improve that much up close. IDK there must be something horribly wrong with our information-finding methods but I don't know what to do about that.
No wonder I am churning out so damn much fic lately aaagh.
We are kinda staring at the drawing board at this point. There is still Plan B. Not only that but Plan B are contributing about 90% of the spam problem so they are probably going to be receptive to haggling. We are also considering waiting, working on other big life problems around here (like me getting a driver's license finally) and trying again in April/May (ie. when I wouldn't be able to walk straight into a job) but this time looking further out of the city. We are reconsidering Pittsburgh but oh god what is the point of still being lonely all the time and it's not like it would be any easier, just cheaper. I NEED TO GET OUT FFS.
I just made lunch, and now I am going to go run with my dog, and generally try to feel less helpless but not in ways that involve obsessively working on gigantic AUs for two different fandoms. oh wat life wat.
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I am sorry moving is being so hard right now.
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i just. GA. please let go of me please.
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FWIW I hate making phone calls and doing real life "administration" - ...the days of our age are threescore years and ten, and though some be so strong that they come to fourscore years, I don't t want to waste any of them phoning round for a flat. (My apologies to everybody who likes apartment shopping. I appreciate that for you guys it's better than porn. But porn is a very individual thing, and I don't get off on it.)
If it were me, I would extend your lease further. I can devise some cute motivational strategies1 - but the problem is choice. You have to want choose to look for apartments; and, at the moment, you don't. Of course, having said that, you'll probably luck into something - I have my fingers crossed, anyway.
1 Best idea for you: write a story where ?Snake is searching for a safehouse. Chase up a lead IRL and if it doesn't pan out describe Snake torturing/fucking/assasinating the landlord as part of his inquiry process. You're not allowed more than 200 words per lead; then you have to go chase another IRL.
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and hahahHAAHAHA that would be SO OOC, and yet. Sadly right now I am in a post-line-edit funk and don't want to write at all.