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-it rained all day today, and there is still little work to do; major twitch mode at this point but I am still getting paid so should really be trying not to care about anything else.

-I knew there was a library nearby, so I walked there for the first time after work today, in the rain. It wasn't far off the main road, but I walked down that sidestreet into utter silence; the library is within a park, surrounded by woodland, and its quiet is passed from the books to the trees, words unspoken. A librarian who once went to a Catholic girls' school in Surrey gave me a library card, and I sat in a corner next to the racks of romance novels with racist covers and worked on my horrible porn. (I'm not sure who exactly likes reading romance novels with the Confederate flag on the cover, but Georgia never ceases to amaze me.)

-i just spent about 4-5 hours doing nothing but search airfares and I can't find anything particularly good that doesn't involve Gatwick. I mentally blacklist all POEs that have somehow failed me, and try to avoid giving them second opportunities to dick me around, but Gatwick is my one absolute no-no; the fare saving is never bigger than the cost of getting back to town anyway. Now all I need to do is decide whether it's worth $6 each to not be fucked with Toronto again. wtf it's barely more than lunch money, I don't think Toronto is getting a second chance. I feel like I shouldn't place the booking when I'm this damn tired and M has been asleep all evening but on the other hand I really should. *sigh* Vayama has a lot of different AA flights at the exact same price so I think I will go sleep and show M in the morning. :/